Loooooooooong...Time...No....C......!

hold on buddies.......now dont strt telling me im getting obsessed wid "C"..!...i know it....and i hav a reason(gud enuf for me..) to..!....so off to da point..now

hmm wats da point??..its been quite a long time..since i've posted something!!
yaa dats da point...not dat nuthin wrth jotting dwn here has hppnd all dis while..but u know..(ya u know buds)...im very lazy!!..so tat takes us ......................


...here...!!(hehe)
now to da heart of my heart!!(hehe)

Live Free and Die Happy(no regrets!!)
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wat do i really want in my life....wat shud neone want in ones life??
these questions dey say can be really paradoxical......but i feel..da answers can be suprisingly simple...i wanna be free...do wat i want..disturb noone..hav fun...and die happy.....hmm ..gone off my rocker am i??...
may be im.....may be im not.....
y shud i care wen it keeps me happy and bothers no one...??

care....!!..dose 4 letters dey mean a lott..
wat do i really care??..thru all dis ....living free and being myself....TRUTH....yaa dats wat i give a damn !!...nope tats wat i gotta give a damn to be HAPPY....and REALLY FREE
coz if u dont, ur life is a mess....u live life ur way...suddenly something strts to go wrong....its da truth...and u gotta hav da guts to take..it and face da consequences...else...u first ignore it...and try to lure ur self into the false sense of security, hoping tat "time"(as dey say),the ultimate healer...wud come to ur rescue or...praying to some god (nope im not an athiest...neither am im a staunch worshipper....i jst feel tat god is a beautiful concept..shall discuss tat later..tats a huge chapter by itself..hehe..lets take on one thing at a time...hehe) askin for help..or to make u wake up to find tat all dat was jst a horrid dream....!!.....den u strt to try gettin used to ignoring it....
no no...feels badd......such a life...feels really bad...bad coz ur a prisoner in ur own head..bad coz its not da truth..tat small truth tats perennially in ur head lurking in some dank dark and dirty corner of ur mind...tat strts to haunt u....for ever..leading to an unhappy but superficially gud life...a life tat wud seem gud to others...and cause em to feel a lil envious of u.....but wat da hell...wat gud is it really to u?? u r unhappy...!!..
so it all comes bak to dis....search for da truth .....face it...wat ever it may be!!...ask ur self.....SO WAT...??brk free..from the prison tats ur head.....and face it....
dat gives u gr8 confidence ...being true to urself.....helps u live a life wid no regrets.....infact it helps u die wid no regrets.....!!
wowwoo...die wid no regrets...die happy.....tats my elysium....!!
hmm its 4:21 am on a sunday morn ....and im watchin "a lot like luv" wid mass and dude rahul......mann dis is y i luv my life......and btw i strtd writing dis at 1.am.....hehe..im quite a slow processor..!!hehe..
adios amigos....live free and die happy...!!!

Miracle Moments: chak de india...!

These days i've stopped botherin much abt indian cricket...infact it's been a while since i hurried to the CR, abandoning my routine to watch cricket..i thought..those days...wen all the ppl in the CR swayed as an entity, a single body of multifaceted diversities..of states languages and other stuff civil rights activists brag abt, cheering ..booing and shouting at the antics of those eleven men in blue, were long gone !!! but incidents such as the one im abt to discuss strongly press me to review my perspective.

After a gud toil for a 2 and a half hours in the QT playin cricket(i was never against playing in the first place!!!), i walked quite reluctantly to the CR to watch wat i expected to be another abysmal performance as team india..had already proved to be utterly disappointing...in the last few overs of the english innings. my god! 5 sixes in the last 5 balls of the innings..given tat..i don't expect better.but,therez this "indianness" in all of us..tat pushes us to hope against our better judgement and linger to experience a miracle or two!!!

Amagingly i got one. i've seen the sachin tendulkar of old..the one..who gracefully drives.. flicks...strikes with ease..dancing at the crease, well supported by ganguly, with his trademark offside drives and lazy pulls!! and watz more....the crowd ..we were all one...cheering...applauding...wondering...and above all staying united ...one in thought.. .action.and...expression jst like the old times. but then again as always, good times never last long...the same olds cramps..fumble in stealing quick singles and fall of wickets...ganguly...sachin...gambhir...yuvraj...dhoni....they fell one after the other. then came the man....robin uthappa...hez been on the bench for far too long..but he fell in place at the right moment...showing amazing nerve...at the clutches of defeat. although lady luck had her share in his innings,it was a valiant effort. with the two fours he struck in the last over of the indian innings, the jubiliant crowd...giving high fives to each other and the passionate yells, the miracle was complete.

I've experienced the same old feeling... cricket may hav many flaws..but none can deny...it's such a gr8 unifying factor in a country like our very own...!!!

Prologue:My way of life

I'm a simpleton, with a pretty simple view on life : "u never know wat happens in the very next instant of time and life" .This sentence thrills me..pushes me, wen i trail behind clouds of confusion tat undermine my abilities..and gives me a surge of wholly different energy to accomplish things. strange though it may look..but it works...put ur self in a situation wen everything's goin against u...all tat u attempt turns out wasted...and u r beginning to lose hope...but..deep down in ur heart..a small bell rings ..the sentence..."u never know...u never really know..watz gonna happen ...may be...if i try..i may have a chance...nuthin in this life..urs....mine..and for tat matter neones is fixed..they interact in as complex a way..as one required to provide a nearly perfect random combination of events...tat gives everyone a chance...if he tries hard...everyone..even a simpleton like me!!!"...the sound reverberates in ur body..till u lose urself in the large vista of exciting possibilities, hopes and abilities...it shows u and starts u get goin. and wen u r bored to the core...it still rings, rejuvenating u and reminding u of the plethora of activities and options at ur disposal...a lil imagination and lo...sky is the limit for ur actions..adventure..excitement and thrill..............
n this folks is my way of life.